06.27.11

If I'm MIA during the month of July, it will be because of those books pictured above. I thought this summer would be a time of relaxation but with work, online classes, and GREs it doesn't seem like it will turn out the way I expected. But God always has a way of spicing things up a bit.

I was at work today and was feeling so lost, shy, and overwhelmed. I didn't have the courage to complete the tasks on my own because I didn't know what I was doing exactly. Normally I'm good at trying new things and learning but today I felt so defeated(?) I don't feel like I'm putting my best foot forward, I don't feel like I'm connecting with the patients, and often times I wonder again why I'm here. Maybe once I get the hang of things I'll appreciate it more. Not to say that I dread my job. I love my coworkers. They're suuuuper nice and helpful. It's just, I'm doubting myself a lot. But I'm sure things will get better.