Feelings are so fickle; feel one way one moment and feel the opposite the next. Why? Sometimes I don't feel like I belong. Other times I can't help but feel like I'm better than others. Why am I thinking about these things right now? My thoughts are almost always revolved around me. When does the self-centeredness stop? Lord, I pray for less of me and more of you. Fill my heart.

Struggling with not wanting to take part in the world. Not indulging in "life" but being completely satisfied in who I am in you. I don't want to be accepted by the world and be...happy. How do I become set apart? Is there something that my mind and heart is not quite understanding? Open up my eyes to your will and to you.

Beauty. Struggling with it. Feeling the pressure to be a certain way, look and dress a certain way to be perceived a certain way. I'm lacking trust that beauty comes from within. I'm having difficulty accepting myself as beautiful when I am constantly indulging myself in media and pursuing beauty by the standards of the world. I'm afraid of what people might think of me because of how I look and dress.

Question: If I believe Jesus is the Messiah over all the earth, why am I being the way that I am? Why am I not interested in Him but more interested in myself? Where is my fire for Him? My passion for Him? My desire for Him? What He said should matter to me. But why isn't it?

I have overcome the world

Continue to submit to Him, be obedient to the Father