05.31.11

I skipped my 8AM again today! I promise I'll go to the last lecture on Thursday, bleh. I woke up this morning with sore arms and realized that it was from swinging yesterday at the treehouse -_- I came home after class had lunch with Steph & Lawrence, got some free sprinkles, went to sprinkles again with Jeannette, and then looked at apartments to sublet for the summer. Play with me in the summer, please :) We went over to Matt, Jun, Andy, Kevin, and Daniel's place for pizza and basketball game (kinda, not really) and played a round of Nertz haha. Our community group met up for the second to last time before the school year comes to an end. We went to Cafe Hue and enjoyed each other's company over waffles and gelato :)

My head hurts really badly right now. Not sure why. Maybe it's from...all the worries I have of the upcoming year! I'm ready to graduate and all but I'm having so many doubts and questions about the upcoming summer and year. I know He has good things in store, and I keep telling myself that He has the best in store for me but sometimes it's hard to see it. I know it will be good, I know it will be good, I know it will be good.

05.30.11

Today was a good day. The weather was so nice!
I woke up and had breakfast with JJ at Olive Cafe. It's already been 3 years since I've know him and it's cool to talk about how much we've grown in the past years. JJ is like a little brother to me! I've known him since orientation and having him be in my bible study to being friends that can hang out is really cool :) Afterwards I went on a short "hike" with Steph, JJ & John O'Connor and their future apartmentmates. We went to gliderport and what we did was basically go off trail -_- which was fun but also verrrry unexpected haha. After not having keys to the car (or phones), walking to ERC, then walking to Marshall, and waiting for a ride I finally got to Amelia's house with John and Jeannette. We helped clean around the house and enjoyed a nice dinner with the Kapur family. Thanks for coming with me guys! Now I'm at home, working on a project and getting ready to go to bed...soon.

05.29.11

Today I got to spend time with my best friends from home--Kai, Michelle, and Donna. We just talked at Starbucks :) Now I'm back in SD for my last two weeks of school. I'm ready.

05.28.11

Today I was able to spend some time with my grandparents in LA. More like tutoring my 80 year-old grandpa on how to use his laptop and email, but spending time nevertheless! My grandma and I were able to just sit and talk and on my drive back home I thought about all kinds of things. I wondered if my grandma was lonely living where she was, I wondered how things would be different if my grandparents on my dad's side were still here today. I remember how fervently my dad's mom would pray and read the Bible, always encouraging me to seek the Lord.

Later I spent time with my family, cooking, eating and talking. It's nice to do that. To just sit with freshly roasted corn talking about Josh's algae project while my dad shared some funny stories that would make all of us laugh. And after having a somewhat more open conversation with my brother on the drive back to UCLA to drop him off, I'm here soaking in what happened today. Home is good and restful, and also brings about a lot of memories.

It's funny how God works. Whenever I'm at home I always find myself looking through old emails, messages, pictures and it amazes me how far I've come from before--even from just one year ago. It's crazy how skewed one's vision can be. I wrote this about a year ago:

One of my summer goals is to be one with God. To remember him as my first love. To make him my anchor and my source of joy and encouragement. To be reminded that He is the only one that can fulfill me. He is the one that can lead me to green pastures. I know for a fact that many times this year and probably even now I looked towards you and friends as the main source. But it fails, it's inconsistent, it's imperfect. But the book that I'm reading reminds me that God is the one true love. The everlasting one that is ever pursuing and ever loving. He is Love. WIthout Him, we are nothing. And I want to learn what that means. What does it mean to be nothing without Jesus? What does it mean to do everything for Jesus? I have so much to learn and I hope this summer brings about intimacy and growth and transformation. Ah! Summer 2010, here we go!


Boy, did God answer that prayer. Intimacy, growth, transformation is everything that happened this past year. God has been faithful. Even at this time when I feel distant, I put my trust in Him because I know He is consistent and thorough in His promises. He really broke me down this past year and He continues to build me up, teaching me what it means to let go of the things of this world, to be obedient to Him, to understand what it means to love and forgive. It was a rough year, but a year full of growth.

05.27.11

I ran errands for my parents all day today. Went to the DMV, Triple A, Bank of America, then went to UCLA to have dinner with Erica and Josh and then hang out for a bit. I love love love UCLA campus! I love the open space, the buildings, the library. Oh my gosh, when I was in the Powell Library I thought to myself that my friends and I would never survive in there. It was so quiet and looked so much like a real library with people REALLY studying. We're used to the chatter in Geisel. Had dinner at Covel which was pretty neat since it's buffet style and it's not like that in SD. Headed home but decided to catch a movie beforehand so we went to the Del Amo mall and saw Bridesmaids, which we thought was pretty hilarious. Haha with some awkward parts AND! Suki from Gilmore Girls (Donna I know you know who she is) plays a role soooo uncharacteristic of her, I was so so...shocked? Nevertheless it was a good day.

05.26.11

Woke up bright and early to meet Kai & Donna to go to Long Beach for Michelle's graduation! Though we couldn't find seats it was fun to celebrate with Michelle's family and friends. I can't believe it's already been four years since we were walking down our all-weather track at West High School, and here we are four years later graduating from our respective colleges moving on towards...who knows what! I took a nap once I got home, and enjoyed a yummy meal with my parents. I love coming home and talking to them because there is always something new that either my mom or dad is learning. We sit and talk and then we sleep. I love it! I currently finished watching The King's Speech and now gonna watch Blue Valentine. Home is wonderful :)

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05.25.11

I had work in the morning today. Got in trouble for wearing sandals -_- Can't wait to get outta there. Went home and watched "Keeping up with the Kardashians" (guilty pleasure) with Marie before I headed to Yogurt World to hang out with Eli. It's crazy how fast a year has been since we were in Guatemala. Dang! At around 5 I met with Hana to eat dinner at Zanzibar Cafe then went to ceramics for the last time this quarter. It's sad because out of the 9 weeks that I've been there, I haven't been able to make ONE finished product. Sad. But I will keep trying! Now I'm home sweet home in Torrance ready for a weekend of fun :)

05.24.11

Skipped 8AM, went to two of my other classes, volunteered at Scripps hospital and then came home to play Nertz with Marie, Jeannette, and Steph. I had dinner with my friend, Jenn Chen! :) We cooked some korean food and a side of broccoli at her place and talked. It's always good hanging out with Jenn and how much our friendship has been changing...for the better (right, Jenn)? I would never have imagined in a million years that we are where we are now having the conversations that we're having but I feel like God is always growing the friendships around me and I'm glad that we're able to be honest with one another and always want what's best. I admire you and cherish our friendship, love you!

We headed over to campus for the Gospel Choir Concert (great job, Sam & Lawrence) and the four of us went to TapEx to eat and hang out. What a night :)

05.23.11

I can't wait to see these girls Thursday morning :)

05.22.11

Woke up and went to church for nursery and for service. Ate lunch at Board & Brew (yummilicious) then headed home and watched "The Switch" with Adina. Later we got ready to continue Adina's birthday celebration. We had dinner at Hodad's in Ocean Beach then went to Convoy to do what Adina loves to do most--NRB! Hahahahahahahahahhaaha :)




05.21.11

My dear friend (of 4 years) and roommate's 22nd birthday, Adina Cho! We started the day off at Fig Tree Cafe for brunch. The food there was suuuper yummy then we headed over to the Doyle Park to play on the swings and playground. Adina was happy :) Later we got ready to go to IV banquet, our last one! I can't believe four eyars has already passed. It was really neat to see all the performances and enjoy friends.

Adina, I hope you enjoyed this weekend thoroughly. I love you so much and can't explain to you how much you mean to me as a friend. You understand me and that in itself is...amazing haha. But thank you for being a persistent and loving friend who is fun-loving and open. You never cease to make me smile :)

05.20.11

(Picture from Steven Lee)
Our apartment has been waiting for this weekend because it's fun-filled :)
Tonight we got ready for Harbor Church banquet which was super nice and pretty. People shared what their learned and memories they had of Harbor. Others performed. Then took a bunch of pictures haha. It was a nice way to end the year. Harbor has been such a blessing in all of our lives and I'm so grateful that I was able to be a part of it. Afterwards we went to TIpsy Crow to celebrate Sandy's 21st birthday! And at midnight we wished ADINA CHO a happy birthday. LOVE YOU! <3

05.19.11

I took my last midterm! I went to Rum Jungle with Elsie after work to get acai bowl (which I didn't think were THAT great) but it was a good time nevertheless. Jeannette, Crystal and I played Nertz for a good amount of time and currently just cried watching a random person's wedding clip. I can't wait for my friends to get married! :)

05.18.11

I seriously can't wait for this day. I will jump for joy.

Today was a nice day. I walked to school a little earlier than normal, my coworker/friend Sarah Hyun brought me chai-tea latte from Starbucks. I had lunch with Jenn Chen which is always super good :) Then I went to Geisel and studied, had dinner with Andrew Bryant while Jeannette was at the mall shopping (for me too!) and now I'm back in Geisel...studying. Tomorrow is my last ever midterm in UCSD. I can't waittttttt!

05.17.11

Today was such a cold cold day. No fun walking in the rain but the sun came out later to play which was nice. Elsie, Adina, Crystal and I went over to Amelia's house to see Baby Luke and the family and bring over some Korean pancakes to share. Later I studied with Adina, Jeannette, and Steph and here we are at home, studying some more. OH! And I was able to talk to Michelle and Donna online, which was quite amusing :) I'm studying at home now for my last ever midterm in UCSD and I'm just sooo over it.

And (thanks to Jeannette for reminding me) my mom got me my graduation present today. wahoo!

05.16.11

Started the beautiful sunny day at Starbucks studying. I had lunch with Donna Lee at K's Sandwiches which was super yummy and I enjoyed my time with her :) Afterwards I went to Amelia's and then enjoyed dinner at home eating lasagna and salad. I met up with Grace E. Lee at the Living Room in Downtown La Jolla and caught up on life. It's crazy that four years have passed since we first met. Later Marie joined us and we talked about life some more. They talked about their dads and I felt my heart break a little. It's so nice though to hear about their dads. So many mixed emotions. Talking, crying, laughing. That's how I want to spend my life :) Thanks for the night!

05.15.11

I'm drained. I'm tired. I want school to end. I feel distant, detached, dark, cynical. Why is that? How do I give this up to Him?

On a happier note! Went to church, studied with friends, and had dinner with Sarah, Kristina, and Jeccica at Flemings for Happy Hour.

05.14.11

Started out the day with breakfast at the Cottage with Matt, Crystal, Adina, and Jeannette. Had some gooood foood then went to study at Panera. We had some free goodies then we came home for more food, more Nertz, and movie! We're currently watching No Strings Attached. Goodbye!



05.13.11

Today was SunGod. Went to Board & Brew with friends then came home, hung out and went to the festival later on at night. Good time with friends :)



05.12.11

Waited in line for SunGod bracelet and hung out at home. Saw these two on our way there hehehe :)



05.11.11

Andy & Daniel came over to have lunch! We played Nertz. And played Nertz and more Nertz. I went to ceramics and tried to make a new mug.

05.10.11

1 Thessalonians 5:16
Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

05.09.11

That's beautiful baby Luke, my mentor's newborn son! Isn't he adorable? I was able to go over to her house today and hold the baby and take the other three boys out to the park to give Amelia and Eric some time to rest.

I've been feeling...off a little bit. Distant? I don't know what the word is, but whatever it is don't let me hide away in my thoughts. God, You are in control.

05.08.11

Happy Mother's Day! (My grandma is the one at the very end wearing a yellow hanbok:))
My mom and I went to my grandma's church because she is now a deaconess? I don't know what the word is in English but there was a little dedication to her and a couple of other people so we went to celebrate with her. It was nice because my grandparents came over later and we had lunch at our house. Went to borders to study with Cat a bit and now I'm at home spending time with my parents.

It's already Week 7! Time is ticking, time time is ticking.

05.07.11

I love waking up to home. I read and journaled in the morning then my grandpa came over. He's 80 years old and learning how to use a laptop because he has time and wants to learn. We went to BestBuy to buy some accessories for his laptop and we had lunch at Hayashi. Came home and watched basketball with my brother, took a nap and then went out with Chester and Cat. It was nice driving around downtown LA. We ate at Bottega Louie, had macaroons, then went to Urth Cafe for drinks. It was a nice way to spend Saturday.

It's weird how unsure I'm feeling these days. But I keep on. Keep on telling myself that God wants what's GREAT for me. I have to trust that.

05.06.11

My friend Cat trying out the new exercise machine that my dad brought home haha. You just stand there and it shakes your whole body, not sure how it works but supposedly it does? It's nice to be at home and just relax. Literally do nothing but just sitting in the warm sun thinking about life while listening to music.

I'm always so conflicted when I come home. Home is one of the places where I run out of patience and am easily frustrated. Contradictory, huh? You would think that learning more about God's love for me it would transform all aspects of my life, but it's always the hardest when it comes to family. I don't know what it is. Actually I do know what it is...sometimes. I am easily discouraged but it's good that I'm able to recognize that and ask God to be more involved in that part of my life. In all parts of my life, really. But sometimes I wonder, is it hopeless? Is the dream that I have merely a dream? Man, I don't know. Not only that, what do you do when the people closest to you seem so far from God? The same words that you share to encourage fellow believers doesn't offer the same power to those who aren't. What then?

This is what happens when my thoughts are allowed to go and go and go and go. It's trouble!

05.05.11

We played the card game Nertz for about 3 hours. Our apartment (plus Matt) always has new game obsessions. Last year it was Sequence, then Phase 10, then Monopoly Deal, and now it's Nertz. Playing games with them never gets old.

Today I actually thought to myself, Did I make the right decision? What if I was being selfish? Is this really God's plan for me? I'm not sure but I have to remember that He is sovereign and in control and will use all circumstances to His glory.

05.04.11

Today there is a new addition to this family! Baby Luke came into the world today and now this beautiful family has 4 boys instead of 3! I'm so excited to see Luke grow :)

Today was a nice day and I hung out with the one and only Sam Lin. It's cool to see that we went from orientee/orientation leader to friends! Went to ceramics and failed at making a vase then went to LG. I'm at home now doing what I love doing the most--sitting around with my friends.

05.03.11

I can't believe it's week 6 already and school is over soon and undergrad will be over. Where did time go?!
Tonight our community group and Andy's community group ate In N' Out and went to Heaven Sent for dessert. It's fun to spend time together and just be in each others presence :)

Went over to Kristina's place to paint my nails and talk. It's always nice to talk to Kristina because I feel like we can connect on a lot of different levels and I really appreciate how honest and vulnerable she is with me. I'm honored that she's able to share with me and that I can do the same with her. It's cool to see how much she's grown over the past year and how open she is to inviting God into her thoughts, actions, and decisions. I appreciate you, Kristina Han!

05.02.11

Tonight our community group went bowling with Andy Yang's community group. It was fun! Bowling reminds me of my youth when my brother, mom and I would go together and my mom would teach me how to bowl. Since then, I've always loved going. I'm not that great and I've never gotten a turkey but I enjoy it nevertheless!

I'm thankful for the community group that I've been blessed with! :)

God is faithful. He's been protecting me this whole time & I'm in awe of who He is and what He's doing in my life. Continue to mold and break me.

05.01.11

I don't know what I would do without my loving friends who always point me back to Christ. No matter the circumstances, after hearing me out, after sympathizing/empathizing with me, they always manage to bring me back to what really matters. So during this time, I pray that You stay at the center of my thoughts and that I continue to be humbled by the message of the Cross and the Truth that Your grace is enough for me & those around me.




04.30.11

Part 2 of the Desiring God conference then we headed back to San Diego for A's baby shower! It was my first baby shower and I'm so excited for Baby L to come into this world. I am so blessed to be part of their family and part of the whole pregnancy process.

Tonight I broke down. Nothing seemed fair at this point and I couldn't understand why things happened the way that it did. But I tried to see the good of this trial. I tried to remember that all things work together for good to those who love God. I also reminded myself that God has the best in store for me. He doesn't want to just give me good, He wants to give me great.



04.29.11

I have a job! I'll be working at a place called Physiotherapy as soon as school is over and I have to thank M & K. Thank you guys for opening up the opportunity :) God has been so gracious in opening that door for me to pursue occupational therapy and I'm really excited for the next year that God has planned out for me.

A, C, E, J, M and I left for John Piper's Desiring God conference at SaddleBack Church. It was cool to see such a man so on fire for God. I have never read the book (I've had it since the JAMA conference in 2004 but have never read past the first chapter) but I know he is a wise wise man.