Long story short, my laptop had problems after I tried to upgrade it so I took it into the store without backing up my stuff and now I have a laptop with 4 years of memory erased.

I was so sad to find that all the pictures I've accumulated over the years were gone. All the saved conversations, all the papers, all my documents and programs...gone!

But it's like having a new start with no strings attached. Nothing to stop me from moving forward because there's nothing else to look back on anymore. There are new memories to make, new pictures to take, and new papers to write!

Here's to a clean start :)

It's tough.

Every day I have to recommit myself to Him.

Every day I have to choose to want Him, desire Him.

Every day I have to ask God for more of His love so I can love His daughters and sons.

It's tough though, not gonna lie.

My selfishness, pride, anger, self-absorption all get in the way.

But in the end I ask Him to reign.

To reign over my life, my decisions, my actions, my thoughts.

Come, Lord.

“I think you have a heart idol called Pride that you are worshiping right now. You are your own God. It will take a work of God’s grace to change you. You’ll have to come to the point where you decide that Jesus is trustworthy, and you allow him to reign in your heart instead of yourself. I realize that’s going to take some time.”

"A committed relationship allows you to drop pretenses and seductions, expose your weaknesses, be yourself--and know that you will be loved, warts and all. A real relationship is the colission of my humanity and yours, in all its joy and limitations. How partners handle that collision is what determines the quality of their relationship."

Beautiful by Bethany Dillon